It's 7:15am, and everyone has now officially left my house. I may be too close to, and especially too tired, to really understand and convey what this week was like. In all, the actual convention had a lot more potential for disaster than what actually happened. I think that for those people who were watching on television, catching speeches in primetime and a little of the ambiance in the 30second storylines running in the national news, it looked pretty uneventful. Nothing ever came near conveying what it was really like down in the city, not even the local news coverage from what I could see.
On Monday I witnessed a sea of people marching through the streets of St. Paul. The majority of them were joyful, peaceful, enjoying the camaraderie of a common purpose -- in this case a chance to express the human and financial waste that they feel the war in Iraq has become. I spent two hours in the sun, directly next to the fence lining the street in front of Mickey's diner, with the protesters in front of me and a full line of riot cops directly behind. But while I watched this I was checking updates on my phone, reading about the tiny factions that were breaking from the march, those who were roaming the streets trying to break glass and intimidate. And to be completely honest, a small part of me didn't totally blame them. I never could have done it, or condoned it, but there was something about the way they had fenced off the city, sanctioned it so thoroughly and completely into people who "mattered" that week, and people who were left to fend for themselves, that started to stir that sense of injustice and make me want to lash out, too. The injustice that the homeless at Dorothy Day Center spent the entire week behind the fence of their shelter, black paper draped over the fence to allegedly protect their privacy, in a move that instead cut them off from the rest of the world. The fact that buses were cut off and bike racks removed, streets blockaded for car and walking, making it impossible for some of the most economically teetering people to make it to their jobs, or back home after to their families. Or that while we were hearing about prosperity and economic success, the streets were nearly deserted, the business that we were told would revitalize the area quarantined into a zone of about 4 blocks while the delegates and guests themselves were instead herded into buses and deployed to the next location. The was no feel of jubilation on the streets, just tension and paranoia while helicopters ceaselessly circled and the riot police watched. Nothing justifies damage and violence, ever, but until you've stood in one you can't completely understand the electric air of uneasiness surrounding a police state.
And that's really where we are, and what we dance around. We're afraid to say it was a police state because we understand that as long as we are in this country, we inherently can't have one. But when you are walking down the street and realize that the officers and uniforms are outnumbering you 5 to one, when you start to recognize the uniforms and make a tally based on the dress as to which weapons they are likely to be carrying, when you have a week sandwiched between one of your reporters being gassed on Monday and arrested on Thursday, in both cases while they were just trying to cover the story, or they are practicing with watercannons right across from the building you were just working in the day before, what else can you call it?
I understand that to compare this to real oppression and real occupations is like saying caring for a goldfish is the same as raising a child. This was a blip in time, and I think inherently it was never going to get very violent. The police were skilled and for almost all cases entirely professional. They performed as they were asked to. But something strange happened on the street. The target was the "anarkids," but it still seems that a secondary target was the media. So many reporters were arrested, intimidated, or cut off from their stories. When they were caught in a roundup, they were still charged. And last night they moved them to one side and gave them citations.
It's almost as if they wanted to stop the reporters from covering the streets, which makes so little sense to me. In some small way it had to be the reporters, especially those who were tracking and covering live, who ensured that the violence didn't escalate. Police would have documentation of the incidences, people could be identified. They were playing a significant role in peace-keeping, and for that they were cited with unlawful assembly or worse.
I'm rambling, which I suppose isn't surprising after many days of little sleep. I wish there had been more interaction. I wish there had been less intimidation. I wish that the protesters hadn't gotten in and tried to disrupt the McCain speech. I wish that It had felt more like a celebration somewhere other than just inside the convention hall. I wish I hadn't paid $11 for pad thai on Monday just because it was the only restaurant I could get to that wasn't blocked. And I wish that everyone parked at the party house hadn't gotten tickets for parking facing the wrong direction even though it was a two way street, especially since that only happened the night we put up the "Living Liberally" banner. And I wish that everyone could have stayed longer, but I'm so glad in many ways that they are going home.
I believe we are going to spend a lot of time in the next week examining what when right and wrong in St Paul. We will likely find out that what I have been hearing is true -- that the local police had all operations removed from them and taken over by homeland security, that they were the ones writing the releases and police statements, directing events, etc. And someday someone will analyze the fact that there was not supposed to be marches on Thursday, as far as I know, and that it was a reaction to what many saw as the overreaction of the entire security brigade all week.
But for me, for now, enough reflection. I didn't get arrested or gased. We had a fantastic time at the Liberal Lounge watching speeches and then drinking by the fire pit and dissecting the day's event. And now I need to try and catch up on a little sleep.
After all, Minnesota has a primary in 4 days...